Little Big Souls
It has been written that having a plant is the new equivalent to having a pet and having a pet is the new equivalent to having a kid, adding the only people who are having children in this day and age are "crazy" or the filthy rich. I've thought about this several times over the last few weeks and continue to chuckle about the fair amount of accuracy with which this was stated.
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| Fresh cut! Both her and 1st mow of the spring/summer season. |
If you have seen some of my previous blog posts, you know I enjoy gardening. So what about the pets and children? Well, I do not have children. Never have I been in a situation where I trusted a partner to raise a child with me. Frankly, I did not want to be a single mother, and, regardless, I did not want to physically push out a baby. No, thank you! Besides, there are plenty of kids already in existence who need love and guidance. These are great reasons to not want to birth children. (Read: any reason is a good reason.) The thought terrifies me and, as it turns out, I wasn't wrong about not being able to trust a partner in my life. Joyously, I share that what I do have is a cat and dog. For me, that is enough!
My dog, Zoey, is currently undergoing treatment for life threatening parasitic diseases that she contracted prior to her becoming my special girl. It often has devastating outcomes, and do you know what makes this even more frustrating? It is preventable. Fortunately, I listened to my intuition telling me to take her to the vet and specifically have her tested. Voila. Problems turned up and we are addressing them. It was excellent timing. If I took her to be tested any sooner, detection was not likely. It would unknowingly get out of hand. Any later of a detection and the problem could be lethal.
After picking her up from one of the "big" appointments at a local animal hospital, yesterday, I took her away from city life to my mom and stepdad's beautiful farm in the country where life is slower and getting to the outdoors to potty is easier. Knowing that I really had other things to do, my mom was open to staying with Zoey. In fact, my mom's experience with doctoring animals is vast, whereas mine is quite limited. (Although I did do a good job of injecting insulin into my diabetic cat when he was still alive.) Despite my mom being available, I chose to excuse myself from other responsibilities to stay with her, today, to personally look after her, see her initial response to the treatment with my own eyes, and to be there to love on her.
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| PUP CUP!!!!!!! |
Before I go any further, please, allow me to say that my heart goes out to parents with a sick child. I do not mean to make light of that, whatsoever. These things having to do with having human kids is not for me, but I like them. I'm neither heartless nor do I wish to sound like I have no empathy for a situation that I, myself, have not and will not experience. Furthermore, I don't consider my homegirls to actually be my kids.
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| My sweet angel! |
That said, IT WAS SO DIFFICULT TO LEAVE MY GIRL, tonight! I did not necessarily have to go until morning but it does make sense to go ahead and pass the baton to my mom and make the drive. There were advantages to getting it over with and coming back, tonight. Besides, I knew I was leaving her in excellent hands with hearts who love her about as much as I do.
I STILL TEARED UP!
Luckily, because my mom knows I didn't want to leave her and that it wouldn't have been any easier to leave in the morning, she has already sent me pics showing that Zoey is in on her favorite spots, a particular section of the sofa, snoozing away. She's just fine and, in the morning, I am certain to get more pics and videos! Intellectually, I know this and the benefits to letting her hang out there, but I my eyes are starting to sting, again.
For non-health related reasons, my cat, Drusilla, is also there. She LOVES running around outside on the farm and, with spring in the air, it feels selfish of me to lock her up in a tower. There, her only exposure to the outdoors is with me helicoptering over her if I let her onto our balcony positioned high in the air. Right now, that girl is living her best life on vacation. She is entertaining and adds a little spice to mix of other cats and dogs. The arrangement also helps me out by giving me freedom to open my door and windows to let in the "fresh" air. In fact, she might have a city home and a county room before I know it.
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| They loved each other, instantaneously. |
Rarely am I without another sentient being. I am extremely independent and, subtextually, you might have gathered that I also live "alone", as in not with other people. I don't require sharing a dwelling to be with another human on any level to be content, but I do heavily rely on the companionship of animals. It is really strange to sit here late at night and not have at least one little (big) soul with me! However, my anxiety is not ramping up, and that is definitely something to write home about. I stay pretty anxious and jumpy so not feeling spooked without my babes is a relief.
I am very grateful they have a place to visit where they will want for nothing, not even affection. In lieu of children, it's cool for me to let their grandfolks have fur babies to dote upon. Besides, what is most important for me in terms of Zoey and Drusilla is their wellbeing, a true indicator of my love for them, and I know they are perfectly safe and happy where they are, despite my absence. They'll be glad to see me, but I don't think they are suffering by feeling totally abandoned. If I had any doubts, my mom's pic she just sent proved Zoey is okay with the current arrangement.
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| BIG YAWN! |
My heart melts when I see her cozy, looking cute, looking silly, looking funny, looking sleepy, looking excited, looking cute - looking cuter - and the same goes for Drusilla. but if this is the closest I come to feeling what it is like to do the best I can for a kid, then I am satisfied. At least, I will be when I can go back to the country to be with them.
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| The power of three! |
Do you share your life and love with furry ones?!! Drop some pics of your babes!
Awwwwwww! Hope Zoey is alright!
ReplyDeleteHi, Raenell! Zoey has asked me to tell you hello and that she thanks you for your concern and well wish! She is doing quite well, especially with all the things considered. She's halfway through the six month treatment, and still seems to be taking everything in stride. She was diagnosed at THE sweet spot on the timeline. In fact, she's neither had the possible side effects nor does she seem to know that she's sick. She has shown no symptoms. The diagnosis is troubling but the timing is impeccable for getting her all better, again, soon. We thank you!
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